so stressed-out

sometimes i wonder why i'm taking on a non-c++ job. i thought it would be way easier and less stressful. but i was wrong of course. it has nothing to do with the programming language. all technical jobs are really stressful. well, with deadlines to beat, who wouldn't be?

let me rephrase then. sometimes i wonder why i'm doing this kind of job. i've been asking myself these questions for ages already, but still i can't leave it. why can't i just pick up my bag and say, "i'm done with all these tech stuffs and i'm leaving it for good!" but what would i be doing?

some people say, this is what i'm born to do and i'm doing a pretty good job at it, so why fret! but i'm sure they are pretty wrong about that. it's a misconception about me. plus, i don't want to simply just do a pretty good job at something, i want to be doing something that's at least ... Great! you know, the kind where you could proudly say to your grandkids, "you know what, your grand-mommy did that!". (what to do, what to do?)

i think i should start saving the world. but i'd start on the new planet earth that some scientists think exists some thousands of light years away from us. i heard it from the news yesterday. they haven't actually seen this new earth, but they've already felt its presence. read further about the story here.

but then, it will probably take gazillion years before earthlings are sent on a mission to this new planet. that means, my saving-the-new-earth mission will have to be put on hold. for the mean time, i'll continue pounding these keyboards, drain my brain, beat my deadlines and get myself stressed out. or.... i could look for a c++ job, and still get myself all stressed out.