I-OnlineUpdatable?

let me talk about work. just for now.

One of my current tasks is to modify my gui module and make it Online Updatable. That simply means that i would have to add some changes to the gui so that it gets updated correctly when one of its configurations have been changed. One of the modifications that i have to add in for this is have one of the classes inherit from IOnlineUpdatable, do the required initialisations and voila! my gui now listens for any updates.

Okay, before i get too geeky... just imagine me in the middle of my hectic work with all eyes on my ever colorful visual dev studio. my mind then wanders (which is too often these days) into something that could be "blog"-worthy. but i couldn't just take a break and note that down or else i'll loose the fading (with all the mind-wandering) momemtum i need to do my tasks. so the time just then passes by, and all those thoughts flushed to oblivion. while i was doing that "ionlineupdate" stuff, i couldn't help but think and wish that this blog too becomes online updatable. :) now i wouldn't have to worry how to squeeze in my "blog" worthy thoughts into this blog. how nice could that be? i could do my blogging anytime, anywhere. :p

now i'm just getting crazy for thinking about that. well, it's just that lately i could barely get my "blog" mood back since i'm so stomped with work. By the time i get home, i'd just be too exhausted. except for today. i'm done with my onlineupdate task, so i got the chance to get out of work early (and that is at 7 pm!). i think i've had enough rest (or am i now not used to sleeping early?) since i am still so wide awake and it's past 12 am.

well, enough of blogging for now. i do really need to get my zzz's. tomorrow's another day

:)

shows, shows and shows

i just watched the magical disney show on ice at the singapore indoor stadium last night. makes me want to be an ice-skater and perform with all the handsome princes.. :D twas one great show..i really enjoyed the whole two hours that disney has prepared for the audience.. just had fun remembering all the good movies i've loved so much from disney.. down from snow white, cinderella, pinocchio, beauty and the beast.. to the latest, the incredibles. hmm.. i'm just at loss for words :p

the other night, i was at the river maya concert held at the nokia powerhouse, just outside esplanade theatre. as expected, daming pinoy :D though i wasn't familiar with their songs now...but it was fun.. it's unarguable that the band's performance was great. twas awsome too to see local's carrying fan posters and jamming with the rest of the pinoys.

tonite, i am supposed to go to esplanade theatre to see a reggae concert. however, i've got no one to go with me. so i'll just be lounging my butt here in the apartment, which is a total bummer. it's bad enough that i missed most of the shows of the mosaic music festival. i'm still thinking how i just let a jason mraz concert pass!! (no moolah..and no date are reasons enough, i guess.??) ..how i wish there'd be someone that i could just easily grab whenever i'd feel like going to concerts like these. hmm..makes me wonder, asa naman to ako mga mean-time boys? :D

not in the mood

when single, you always deal with this kind of conversation, that your responses to the issue just varies with your mood. lately, this has been mine.

s: have you been dating anyone?
m: hmmm.. no one.
s: are you sure? even occasionally seeing someone?
m: last time i checked?..none..though how i wish i was .. but no.. there's no one.
s: what about the guy from this-and-that?
m: nope. that was ages ago. m not interested
s: remember the other guy?
m: oh, that guy? what about him?
s: why don't you call him? ask him how he is, etc.
m: not interested.
s: why not?
m: m just not in the mood. i don't feel like it.
s: he's really cute y'know.
m: so? he's history, and besides i'm not in the mood
for that kind of thing
s: what's eating you?
m: nothing.
s: who knows what might work out of it.
m: i've got bigger problems infront of me. i'd rather not get
myself bothered about such trivial things
s: well..okay, there's no need to rush anyway.
m: what's to rush? m still young. duh!
s: yeah. there's still more ahead of you. okay, forget
that i mentioned him.
m: m forgetting it already. (pause) so, what are we talking about?

joyeux anniversaire

i knew someone who once told me that he hated birthdays. close-minded that i was, i totally find it absurd. who would hate birthdays? i didn't understand him then. but i think i do now. not that i hated birthdays. but somehow i understand now and how it would make a lonely person even lonelier.

birthdays are supposedly spent centered on you. i guess that makes it one of the most selfish celebrations if that's how it is continually viewed. we're supposed to receive "gifts". people ought to recognize your existence by greeting you on your "special" day. then that supposedly would make you feel "loved" and be happy. it's okay if you are around people who do find you significant in their lives, just like the way your family always make you feel.

but what if you're not? what if you're alone and far away? what if there's no one who could make you feel that sense of significance? you're around people who barely know you, or are just on the process of becoming "close" with them. well, they greet you if you tell them that it's your birthday. but i think that just totally looses the essence of it. so you anticipate all throughout the day if people would make you feel that you are somehow "special" and worthy of that. when the hours of your "birth"-day start to pass by, and no one makes you feel just that, how are you supposed to feel about birthdays? just bad, huh?

hmm.. am i being negative about it all? or do i just feel un-loved? well, that's totally not it. it's just that i'm supposed to be with the equally significant people of my life. my family. but i'm not and that's making the day sad. yet despite it all, i know that there's still lots to be thankful, for birthdays are also that. it's a day where we should be thankful of the wonderful years that we have spent in this earth and for the wonderful years to come.

today's my 27th birthday...i know i am not getting any younger. but no one is. life goes on. time is ever moving, not stopping for even the most significant moments in our lives. not even on our birthdays. so whatever you do, it's just another day that marks a new chapter in your life. it's a day that makes me ever grateful... for my friends... and my family.