bored coffee musings

i don't want to complain about my life's being complacent right now. i should be happy, contented. not fidgeted nor edgy. nothing's been preoccupying me these days. the only thing that's causing my heart to skip a beat has always been, and maybe will always be, though hopefully not - my coffee.

there was one morning when i decided to change my skype shoutout to "can't imagine my mornings without you... my mocha latte". some people actually thought i was being romantic to call my boyfriend with such endearment. i can't help but crack up on the thought that people would seriously think that. well, if i can't have a boyfriend, i can at least have my coffee, right? however, before the day ended, i had to change my skype status. i don't want to be giving the wrong ideas that i am unavailable. hehe. on the contrary, that would be purely insignificant since there's no probable prospects in my skype contacts anyway.

i've been much of a home body the past month. though i'm itching to go back to clubbing, do salsa or brush up my French. but i see all as pointless and superficial now or nothing just drives me anymore. i can sense that i'm shrinking my social circle little by little that it gets too crowded even if i were to stand in there alone. my thoughts are also tired of spinning around the probabilities of what my future would lie ahead of me. seriously, i get dizzy already about thinking too much nonsense. the only spinning that’s been happening in my life is inside my head.

*sigh* if only i were a seasoned traveler, i'm pretty sure i'd be busy exploring someplace, something, or someone right now. if only i'm strong enough to live the life i want.