dear heart,

"Be still my heart

Lately its mind is on it's own

It would go far and wide

Just to be near you.."

remember that song before? remember how much you get so excited and happy when you hear that song? well, those were the younger days then. when both of us were just so naive and i was hearing you for the first time. i was yet so eager to listen to what you have to say.

but right now, i so much want to tell you to be still. i know you would want to be near him. i could just remember how confusingly at peace you were when he is around. i've noticed you were never that at peace for the longest time. you didn't have any hesitations on how you would want yourself to be. you were just simply happy. i was so glad to see you flowing with life. i know that you have so much to give and to stop you would be so selfish of me. it was the right moment. we both knew that.

but that was just it. i just can't let you be on your own. not anymore, or rather not for now. i am sorry but i just have to keep you first. it's not that i am being selfish, or disapproving. i am just plainly being logical. you need that sometimes. there are just some things that both of us have to do before i let you on your own again.

we both have to heal. most specially you. there are things i have to forget. there are things you have to learn.