not that i'm busy

i know this blog is starting to get rusty. it's not that i am so busy at work (well, i really am but it's bearable). it's not that my life here is as smooth sailing and that my general feeling right now could be summarized to that of a feather, floating lightly, heading to wherever the wind would like to take her. it's not that i'm getting too lazy to compose my thoughts and that there's no point cause there's really not much to write about. no, it's not that. but if i ask myself what it is.. i don't know. j'honnêtement ne sais pas. anywayz, i was having some snacks alone at breadtalk earlier. the branch across cityhall mrt station have this one round table at the corner just by the door, just slightly hidden by any passers-by and with a good view of the busy street corner. well, this isn't my first time to eat here this way, munching on my food at this single round table with no chair. so why do some bakeshops like this don't have a decent table or chair for their customers if they allow them to eat their snacks here, as they also offer a variety of drinks to pair with their pastries. and if they were to provide a table, why just one? delifrance, about two shops away, even could afford several tables for customers to dine in properly, and they sell basically about thesame stuff. but then, why would i choose this place over delifrance? i guess they placed that table there for people only wants a quick bite before heading off to whatever it is that's more deserving of their oh-too-precious time. it's not for people who think that those pastries, and their coffee should be enjoyed as how they're ant to be enjoyed. or, it's for people who are just embarrassed to be seen eating alone, that they can't just lounge on their danishes openly. if they want to enjoy their snack, they'd prefer to do it in a less open place, free from people's could-be meaningful glances. and i feel that table's perfect for me at this time. where i can just eat my snack, and not be able to think about anything. so, i guess that's it. lisod man i-konek, but somehow, somewhere in my thoughts above, i got a point. i do.