i want to

i want to write to you today
i want to tell you how i have been
i want to know where you are
and how have you been

i want to see even a shadow of you
i want to hear even just a whisper
i want to feel even just the breeze
and have its embrace linger

i want to long for the past
i want to look forward to tomorrow
i want to be where i was with you
and not in this lonely burrow

i want to remember how we were
i want to not let your memories fade
i want to linger on thoughts of you
and hold on for as long as they stayed

but

i too want to leave all these wanting behind
i too want to end this craziness that is you
i too want to finally say that last goodbye
and simply go on living without you