full house

i expected to be asleep most of the day last sunday, but i woke up around noon since i was starving! i should have eaten before i slept and i would have had a better nap. my roommie and i opted to watch the korean telenovela that we had been just so crazy about. we had a "Full House" marathon that day. and by the end of the day, our eyes were all misty and swollen from too much crying. i wasnt sure though why i was crying. was it because i could truly relate to the what the lead actress was feeling everytime she suffered for the name of love? or was it because i envy her for receiving all the affection of the very good looking lead actor and wished that happened to me too?

there was a time in my life not too long ago where i got devoid of emotions. probably that was with too much emotional turmoil that i was into that i just got numb. i know i should have spent nights crying. but to my surprise, i just couldn't. no tears would fall, and i've never felt so detached from myself. i guess it was more of a coping mechanism for me to go through my ordeal that time. but i knew i just had to cry or else i'd continue to carry a heavy heart each day. and moving on and letting go would have been less difficult as it was.

just to be able to let my feelings out, i watched mushy love stories. i know i'd be bitter watching them for sure i'd just end up crying at the most romantic scenes. and once i start that, i couldn't control the tears and i'd be sobbing the whole night. my favorite then was Friend's episode on phoebie's (lisa kudrow) wedding, which was somewhere in season 10. and whenever i feel like crying, i'd just get that Friends cd and before the episode even ends, i'd be crying my heart out. i'd cry like a child who just lost her mom in the middle of a big crowd. yes, i'd cry like a baby. but after such a good cry, i'd feel tons better.