stay

"Stay."

I just asked somebody what he wants from me at this moment, all he said was this four-letter word, which short as it is.. sounds so heavy.

my training here in atlanta is about to end.. and i am going back to cebu in a few days. i keep saying to others that i can't wait to go back since i miss my family and friends. well, that's true. but a part of me also wants to stay.i know my stay here is just short, but i have learned to love this place. though i know my reason for me stay is more than just the place.

it just feels so sad to have to let go of something that you have become comfortable with and has started to love. but there is nothing i could do about it but just wish that i could come back here. this country will always hold something memorable for me. it freed my mind and gave me closure from the life that i left in cebu.. it freed my heart, and taught me how to love without fear.
i am just afraid that when i get back to cebu, things would go on as they had been. that my world will continue to rotate in an empty spin. that the lessons in life that i've learned out here be forgotten.

but i could also look at it in another way.. when i get home to cebu, i make it my everyday goal to come back here and be able to stay longer.

right now, i just want to follow where my heart is. and my heart wants to stay.